Letting go and living to the fullest!

This year has been off to a great start.  It is so refreshing to begin to do the things I love the most without constantly being worried about the what-ifs.  Getting a brain aneurysm brings a lot of concerns to mind but fear is one that I can control and I finally began taking control of it.  Two months ago, I was sitting in our support group and my doctor volunteered to come and sit with all of us for an hour and just talk.  He didn’t rush us, didn’t tell us any fancy statistics that don’t mean much but just talked to us.  He listened to us and answered our questions and helped me make the decision that I don’t have to live with fear.   Now don’t get me wrong, I wasn’t scared all the time.  But I would be afraid of legitimate things like being far from home and needing medical care, what increased headaches meant, what would happen when I wanted to start a family and so on.  Then in that meeting, I was reminded that I am good.  I made it and I caught it early and I don’t have to worry about the unknowns.  There’s so many unknowns that I know life can throw my way but don’t pay any attention to those so why this.  So in honor of letting go, Luv and I went to Brazil.  Not only did we go to Brazil but we went without worrying, without getting insurance just in case something happened over there, without going to visit the doctor right before leaving or returning.  We just went, enjoyed being alive and together.  Enjoyed talking about our dreams and the things that we wanted to do.  For me, I realized that the biggest connection I want to have with my aneurysm is to be reminded of the person up above (for me, Lord Swaminarayan) every second of my life and to continue to spread the word about getting tested, taking your symptoms seriously and having fun as we support each other and Step for Hope.  However, I must say that I had my two year follow up today and the aneurysm looks “beautiful”.  Not sure what that means but I will take it and run with it at our 5k coming up on September 22nd.  Hope to see you all there!

Thank goodness for leap year.  I wish I could write more often but with school right now I am blogging once a month.  However, if it wasn’t for this extra day…I would’ve missed February!  Health has been pretty good lately.  I have my one year angiogram coming up in the next month or two so I’m hoping for another great report.  We just had a really great support group meeting at CDH.  My doctor came in to answer questions for all those that attended which was so nice.  When you go to a doctor’s appointment, it always feels so rushed.  So many times the doctors just come in like they need to get somewhere else even thought you are what’s on their schedule.  So it was a breath of fresh air for this doctor to just come in and take the time to simply listen to us and answer all our questions.  It was a great meeting.  Then, I got to make the big announcement of Step for Hope 2012!  This year we have everyone from the group helping out to make it bigger and better than ever.  We even had a new member who seems so wonderful.  So the race date is tentatively set for September 22nd.  Planning is underway and I’ll be back in March to share with you the progress on both the run and my angiogram.  Remember, stay strong and keep faith.  Love, Roopa

I can’t believe it is almost February.  Where does time go?  The start of this year has certainly brought on some new challenges.   I generally don’t post quotes but I came across one that really rings true for me.  “The smile on my face doesn’t mean my life is perfect.  It means I appreciate what I have and what God has blessed me with.”  I was recently speaking to someone who talked about how lucky I am to not have any physical reminder about my brain aneurysm like a scar because my brain surgery was less invasive.  I thought it was interesting because I often feel the opposite.  Although I feel fortunate to have been able to participate in a newer, less invasive procedure…it unfortunately has it’s ups and downs as well.  So while I may not have a scar that others can see, I have a stent with only 7 years of research placed in my brain which serves as my constant reminder.  We can’t choose our procedures or the outcome but we can be grateful for the life we still have.  A life that could have so easily been taken away.  On that note, I just wanted to send my love out to all those who have lost someone to a brain aneurysm.  On their behalf, I will continue to spread awareness and fight for more research until we can stop aneurysms from taking another life.  Stay tuned for Step for Hope 2012!  The latest with my health is that I recently found out that I have severe gastritis.  Gastritis is inflammation and erosions on the lining of the stomach.  Furthermore, doctors suspect this is due to the aspirin I need to take daily to prevent clots on the stent placed in my carotid artery.  Well this seems like a bit of a problem since I can’t get off the aspirin and now the aspirin is causing the gastritis!  So I started having a really hard time dealing with this, if it’s not one thing then it’s another.  A few weeks went on and here I am today feeling stronger, optimistic and ready to tackle another little bump.  The doctor said they would never have guessed I would develop problems with aspirin at this age but that’s the same thing they told me when I requested testing for my head that found the aneurysm and when they found the pulmonary embolism.  They wouldn’t have guessed it but it all happened.  It’s hard to go to the doctor’s and always hear that something new is wrong.  I was really sad and afraid because it took them sometime to figure out what was wrong.  In the end, I knew I had to be strong and while it was challenging at first, it just serves as a reminder of how lucky I am to find out things early enough for them to be fixed.   So make sure you know your risks and side effects to medications.  Ask if there’s anything you can do to prevent you from getting common side effects.  Know that it is truly better to error on the side of caution.  Trust your gut, if you think something seems off with how you’re feeling, get it checked out.  Overall, I’m doing really well.  At work, I had an amazing student teacher for the first few months.  I enjoyed mentoring her but am loving teaching all day again.  I work with such a supportive staff and boss that help me spread awareness and just makes me want to be at work everyday.  I am looking forward to begin working on this year’s run with my partner Lauren and our awesome team.  We are expanding the team to include friends from the most incredible support group and anyone who is interested.  We have our first marketing meeting of the year with our biggest sponsor and supporter this week!  I’ll let you know how it goes.

Happy Holidays!  I hope you all had a wonderful time celebrating this time of year or simply being with your loved ones.  Anywhere you go, it’s nice to see the décor and all the tiny details stores, homeowners, schools, and children are putting into making things sparkle just a little more.
Details…people appreciate and tend to put forth lots of thought into little details.  Whether it is in the placement of the ornaments or the festive table settings you choose or perhaps it’s in the floral arrangements or the way you say good morning to a loved one.  Whatever it is, people tend to focus on details in parts of their lives that matter most to them.  As this year wraps up, I look back and feel blessed for little details like the small blood test that comes negative or the balloon arch that my partner ordered for the Step for Hope run that really made the 5k feel official or the week my husband took off around the holidays just to be together.  I also remember all the things that I have learned over the course of the year and the biggest lesson I havelearned is to look into the details of your health.  I have experienced my fair share of mix-ups while being immersed in the public healthcare system…a few that I caught that have made either a small difference or in some cases, a monumental one.  Let’s start with when I first realized my headaches were not your ordinary headache and went to get it checked.  My primary care was out of the office so I saw one of his associates.  We spent maybe 7 minutes chatting and she told me it was just stress of my upcoming wedding and sent me away with a prescription for anti-anxiety medication.  I wasn’t content with that and went back the next week to see my doctor which led to further testing and ultimately found the brain aneurysm.  What if I had just taken that doctor’s word?  Or how about the time where the triage nurse called me with the results on a Friday stating the MRA showed a possible brain aneurysm but since the referral lady was gone for the weekend, I would have to wait until Monday to get an order for the recommended follow up testing.  She told me not to worry because it’s probably not an aneurysm.  My family ended up taking me to the ER for the follow up testing immediately and it definitely was a brain aneurysm.  Those are some bigger mix-ups but there were smaller ones too.  A couple weeks before the surgery was scheduled to have my aneurysm coiled the doctor explained to me that I would need to get some blood work done about 4 days before surgery and the day before.  This information was needed in order for the surgery to take place as scheduled.  They told me that 3 tests would be done at the 4 day mark and then a different one the day before.  So when I went in the day before, they took 3 tests, same color vials from the 4 day mark.  I got the blood work done, left and then realized that they may not have drawn the blood for the correct test.  So I go back to the nurses’ station, tell them about this and they look at me like I was crazy…as you may also be thinking as you read this.  In the end, they apologized, asked me if they could stick me once more because indeed it was wrong.  Lastly, I did a lot of research in choosing a doctor I felt most comfortable with.  On surgery day, they had me sign all those “in case something goes wrong—they are not responsible” papers and noticed that next to my doctor’s name as who was performing the surgery; his new partner was on there as well.  This meant that he could do the surgery instead.  Now,  I am sure the partner is wonderful but that’s not what was decided and had I not seen that, all my research and level of comfort would have been thrown out the window in that operating room.  I didn’t sign until that was fixed.  So I share these stories not because I want to be right and I’m not sure how big of a deal each incident would have played out to be but I share this in hopes that you will begin to attend to the details of your healthcare as you would for your tree or in choosing the best holiday outfit.  Remember that you and your health are so important and its better that you take care of it when it isn’t a big issue so that it doesn’t become one.  While I have great respect and appreciation for all those in the medical field, I also know that like me they are human and mistakes can happen.  Double check and pay attention to those details so that less can happen.  I hope that you have a very Happy New Year and look forward to sharing more of my journey with you in 2012.  I am going to leave you with some great articles and accomplishments related to brain aneurysms.  Thank you for all your support this year and as always, I wish you much love and good health in this upcoming year.  Here’s a look back at this year…

*Read about our support group at CDH…thank you to all those that attend and the hospital for being so supportive in raising awareness about brain aneurysms, funding vital research and supporting brain aneurysm patients and loved ones!

http://www.dailyherald.com/article/20111012/news/710129951/
*See my journey through the great work of the talented Sarah Jindra and Marco Santana:

http://www.dailyherald.com/article/20111012/news/710129957/photos/AR/

http://www.inspiremechicago.com/search?q=roopa+desai&x=0&y=0

*Read about the innovative and in-depth brain aneurysm research of Dr. Deveshwar:

http://www.dailyherald.com/article/20111012/news/710129955/
*Star Tamala Jones opens up about her brain aneurysm and is speaking out to raise awareness:
http://www.etonline.com/news/116566_Castle_star_Tamala_Jones_opens_up_about_brain_aneurysm/

*Step for Hope raised over $22,000 and made the front cover of the Brain Aneurysm
Foundation’s fall newsletter!  Read all about all the wonderful things the Brain Aneurysm Foundation is doing and
supporting: http://www.bafound.org/sites/default/files/2011%20Fall%20Newsletter.pdf

The last few months have been relaxing and productive.  I have been enjoying getting to know my new group of fabulous third graders along with mentoring a wonderful student teacher.  I had spent most of the summer preparing for the first 5k run/1mile walk for Brain Aneurysm Research and Awareness in Illinois.  It was more work and fun than I ever imagined!  After the event, I took some time to focus on decorating my house; spending time with people I haven’t had time to catch up with in months and busy finishing my ESL certification which ends in two weeks!  In this time, my health has been really good.  I did have a little scare with terrible headaches that weren’t going away for about a month.  Headaches are always a bit scary as it was just a headache that discovered my brain aneurysm.  So, I had to go through trying different medicines to getting an MRI and EEG until finally I decided to just go back to one of my incredible ophthalmologists.  Turns out, my eye prescription changed almost an entire diopter.  I wasn’t excited about the prescription going up but on the bright side, no more headaches and it was a great excuse to get some chic new frames! 

My husband and I were very fortunate at the start of this Q4 (a business term I just learned; in education we just finished first trimester).  A local newspaper-The Daily Herald took interest in my story about being diagnosed with the brain aneurysm.  It was a great opportunity to raise awareness to so many people I may not have been able to otherwise.  The interview was a bit difficult but not nearly as it was to read about.  At the time the article came out, was the same time that I was going through more tests for the headaches and it was just too close to home.  However, it ended well and I am grateful for those who took the time to write about brain aneurysms, read about it and share the article with others.  Someone recently asked me if the article was all true as it sounded like getting married was a huge risk I was taking.  The truth is that it was all true, but it wasn’t quite how it sounded.  Living with a brain aneurysm is a risk but it didn’t mean that it was more risky to get married.  The decision to getting married on time was both a family decision as well as the best medical decision as I needed to see some other specialists and get more tests done before going in for brain surgery.  It ended up being a blessing in disguise because with the discovery of the pulmonary embolism, having gotten the aneurysm treated any sooner may have been the biggest risk.

Here’s the article links in case you’re interested and haven’t seen it:

http://www.dailyherald.com/article/20111012/news/710129957/

http://www.dailyherald.com/article/20111012/news/710129951/

 Finally, I am so proud of my husband for finishing his MBA with the highest honors.  It’s not easy to work full time and go to school and for that and so much more, I commend and admire him.  I hope you all had a wonderful Thanksgiving.  There is so much to be thankful for…from my family to my husband to all those that make such a big impact in my life.  Above all, I am thankful for learning that life can be taken away at any moment and yet have the second chance to make it count, be meaningful and the strength to face challenges head on.  I wish you all the very best of heatlh—the greatest gift we can have.  Check back soon for December’s posting- a topic very close to my heart- attention to detail…

Thank you for visiting my blog and helping me spread awareness.  I had this idea of trying to put my experiences, struggles and victories out for everyone to read about in hopes of raising awareness and giving hope to others who may be losing hope but I wouldn’t be able to do it without you, the readers, supporters and participants and for that I thank you everyday!

September is Brain Aneurysm Awareness Month!

Step for Hope is just days away and I couldn’t be more excited.  I am so excited to have so many wonderful people come together and bring about change, hope and unity.  As I walk I will be remembering and honoring those who have lost their life to a brain aneurysm.  I will be eager to meet other incredible survivors and their family members.  Mostly, I will be praying for those who are currently awaiting surgery or have been recently diagnosed.  I hope that the run and unity gives them the strength to (as my husband says) “stay strong and keep faith”.  I hope that you will be able to join us on 09/24 to step for hope or make a donation to this very worthy cause at http://bafound.donorpages.com/stepforhope.

Want to help raise awareness???  Read the ideas below!

Share the registration link on your facebook or send an email to your contacts.

Share this blog with others.

Visit www.bafound.org to learn about brain aneurysms.

*TAKE ACTION: Tell Congress to Put Brain Aneurysm Awareness on the Map: Click on the link below to learn more about how you can help.

http://bafound.rallycongress.com/4999/put-brain-aneurysm-awareness-on-map/?m=2045855

Watch this video that a special friend did on a website that inspires the masses everyday (www.inspiremechicago.com)…

http://www.inspiremechicago.com/2011/09/diagnosed-too-young.html

 

People are so inspiring.  It’s the little things that people do that makes a big difference.  I recently came across two incidents that were so noteworthy!  First off, I would like to share a story about a woman that was recently diagnosed with a brain aneurysm along with another difficult disease.   I am not sure why when it rains, it has to pour but for some reason it’s often true.  Yet people who are dealt these cards, are the strongest most incredible people I have ever met.  As I was planning for the Step for Hope, I was in touch with someone who would be providing services at the park.  To respect privacy, I am leaving out names and titles~so I called this person to request an item we need for race day.  He kindly agreed and said his company will be there.  A few weeks later, he calls me and asks me about the run and how I got involved.  I began explaining thinking he was going to tell me that he can no longer partake.  However, it was nothing like that.  He told me that his wife was diagnosed with a brain aneurysm and wanted some support.  I was in tears.  It hurt me so much that someone else was going through this.  I immediately felt connected to this family and I was so humbled when I got to visit the family in the hospital.  I am honored to be a part of this difficult journey with them and pray that she will come out of this even stronger than before. 

On another note, a few friends gathered while I was on vacation in Iceland to make ribbons for national brain aneurysm awareness month which is September.  First of all, what incredible friends to do this, especially when I was on vacation!  So one of the girls took some ribbons home and later went out to hit the town on a Friday night with her boyfriend and some friends.  As they were about to leave her apartment, one of the guys decided to put it on.  He thought it would be a great conversation starter!  And so, all the rest joined in and they all went out in the city sporting the Brain Aneurysm Awareness ribbons. 

Thank you to all of you who inspire others, help raise awareness and open up your heart to others.  Together, we will bring NOISE to this SILENT killer.

I have been working on some very exciting things that I am happy to finally be sharing.  As far as my health goes…I have been taking good care of it and am feeling great. Yesterday, I had the opportunity to speak at an event called “Dinner with the Doc’s”.  These doctor’s presented their research on a study they are conducting regarding why some small aneurysms rupture and some big one’s don’t.  It was quite fascinating and it really moved me that these doctor’s don’t just want to fix aneurysms or treat them, but they want to learn more about them and find a way to catch them early.   I have been very fortunate to have detected my brain aneurysm before it was too late and now I hope through raising awareness and providing support, others will too!  A few events are coming up and I hope that you will not only be able to join us, but pass on the information to everyone and anyone.  Who knows who might benefit from the information or be interested in participating!  At this point, we are looking for participants, volunteers, donors and sponsors.  Participants can register at the site below, the rest please contact me.  We greatly appreciate all the support!

Monday: July 18th, 2011 Aneurysm Support & Advocacy Group at 6pm

Please contact me (Roopa) or Lauren at basurvivors@gmail.com if you need more information or would like to get involved.

Saturday, September 24th, 2011 First Annual “Step for Hope” 5k Run/1 mile Walk

Register at: http://bafound.donorpages.com/STEPFORHOPE/

Updates will be posted on this site.  Thank you!

So it’s been a while since I have written.  In this time, I decided to take a mini break from doctor appointments.  I felt my life was consumed with tests, follow ups and a follow up to the follow up.  I was feeling good and decided that I was in a place where maybe I could post-poned a few appointments and do things for me.  So I joined zumba and am loving it.  I am back to working out.  Unfortunately I am not back to running yet as the torn ligament is still healing but my little foot is a trooper and it’s getting there.  It was nice to take a minute to focus on me but I have now gone to most of my follow ups.  Overall, I am doing well but my doctor’s would still like to do some searching with my history to see if we can make any connections between some of the illnesses that had come my way.  So slowly but surely, I intend to use some of the down time I’ll have over summer break to catch up on those visits.  I was going to avoid it at first because I didn’t understand what the purpose was to keep digging and potentially find more bad news but I have now learned that I may learn information that can help in preventative care and the awareness can be beneficial not just to me but my family.  That’s an update health wise but let’s shift to something I am very excited about…

Once I got involved with the brain aneurysm community, raising awareness and fundraisers, I was shocked that there wasn’t some type of run/walk for brain aneurysm research and awareness in Chicago.  So a co-worker of mine came to me and suggested we start one.  I was so excited and started to establish my event planning team and decided we’d have the run around where I live in September which is brain aneurysm awareness month.  So I call the village township to apply for a permit and to my astonishment, find out that someone else has also applied for a permit to do a brain aneurysm run.  The woman was also shocked and decided she’d help me get in touch with the other applicant.  We spoke this evening.  We exchanged our survival stories, our hopes to help others and agreed to tackle this run together as a team!  We were certainly destined to meet.  Like me, this woman was diagnosed with an aneurysm at a very young age, lives in the same town and both of our birthdays are in September–brain aneurysm awareness month.  Needless to say, I am so excited to be working with someone who is a walking miracle.  I’ll let her share her survival story later but things certainly are happening for a reason.  The odds of two young women, living in the same town, trying to organize a run at the same park in the same month is not something one comes across often.   More information about the run will be provided shortly.  Yay!!!

This past week I went to visit my family on the east coast!  I have been itching to spend time with my aunts, uncles, cousins and all their adorable children since my wedding.  In the chaos of hospital stays and barely making it to the wedding, I wasn’t able to partake in the joy of spending time with family before the wedding  outside the hospital.  So it was important to me to go visit them.  Then my husband joined me and we spent the weekend in New York.  It’s always nice to get away and now that I’ve unpacked, I am back to reality.  Today, I’d like to share an experience which I hope will make you look at your health a little more carefully.  Much love, Roopa

Advocate for your health…

Some of you may be the type to never go to the doctor and others may go more frequently.  I am one of those, that when something feels off, I go to get it checked out just to be safe.  Whether you go frequently or rarely, I wanted to zoom in on a decision that has really changed the way I view health and the healthcare industry.  Prior to learning about my brain aneurysm, I had visited the doctor because I was having unusual headaches on the left side of my head for almost a month that wasn’t going away.  When I saw the doctor, she told me that since my wedding was around the corner (about a month away) I was just experiencing stress and gave me some medication.  She told me not to worry and when I asked if it could be something more serious, she assured me I was fine.  My symptoms continued and I knew something was off.  I could have taken the doctors word and carried on because I wasn’t in any major pain and it didn’t interfere with my daily activities.  However, I know my body and so I went back in.  The first time I saw my primary care’s partner and a week later, I saw my primary doctor.  I told him what the other doctor said and told him that I was not stressed and something was off.  This prompted further testing and the discovery of my brain aneurysm.  If I carried on with the first doctor’s advice, I still may not know or I could have passed away from it rupturing and never knowing that I had a brain aneurysm but I didn’t.  I know that no one knows my body more than I do and although I may not know everything, just as I as a teacher collect data to make instructional decisions for my students…I needed the doctor to take the time to order the correct test to determine if there was anything wrong inside my head.  Advocate for your own healthcare.  If you don’t care for your body, someone else may not either.  So if you don’t visit the doctor much, I hope you’ll consider it when needed.  If you do go, I hope you’ll be pro-active, ask questions and get second opinions.  Most of all, I wish all of you tons of good health!

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